MERCY GRIEVES FOR HER CARNAL RELATIONS.

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content that thou shalt return to thy place; I also will pay thee for thy kindness which thou showest to me my children, in the accompanying of us in our way as thou dost.

and

MER. Then will I go thither, and will take what shall follow; and the Lord

grant that my lot may there fall, even as the King of heaven shall have his

heart upon me.

CHRISTIANA was then glad at heart; not only that she had a companion; but also for that she had prevailed with this poor maid to fall in love with her own salvation. So they went on together, and MERCY began to weep. Then said CHRISTIANA, Wherefore 'weepeth my sister so?"

Alas! said she, who can but lament, that shall but rightly consider what a state and condition my poor relations are in, that yet remain in our sinful town: and that which makes my grief the more, is, because they have no instruction, nor any to tell them what is

to come,

CHR. Bowels become pilgrims: and thou doest for thy friends, as my good CHRISTIAN did for me when he left me; he mourned for that I would not heed nor regard him; but his Lord and our's did gather up his tears, and put them into his bottle; and now both I and thou, and these my sweet babes, are reaping the fruit and benefit of them. I hope, MERCY, that these tears of thine will not be lost; for the Truth hath said, that " they that sow in tears, shall reap in joy" and singing. And" he that goeth forth and weepeth, bearing precious seed, shall doubtless come

18 THE SLOUGH OF DESPOND WORSE THAN HERETOFORE,

again with rejoicing, bringing his sheaves with "him"."

Then said MERCY,

• Let the most Blessed be my guide,

If't be his blessed will,

Unto his gate, into his fold,

Up to his holy hill:

And let him never suffer me

To swerve or turn aside
From his free-grace and holy ways,

Whate'er shall me betide.

And let him gather them of mine,

That I have left behind;

Lord, make them pray they may be thine,
With all their heart and mind.'

Now my old friend proceeded, and said,—But, when CHRISTIANA came to the slough of DESPOND', she began to be at a stand; For,' said she, this is the

place in which my dear husband had like to have been smothered with mud.' She perceived also, that, notwithstanding the command of the King to make this place for pilgrims good, yet it was rather worse than formerly, So I asked if that was true? Yes, said the old gentleman, too true: for many there be, that pretend to be the King's labourers, and say they are for mending the King's highways, that bring dirt and dung instead of stones, and so mar instead of mending. Here CHRISTIANA therefore and her boys, did make a stand: but said MERCY, Come, let us venture; only let us be wary.' Then

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they looked well to their steps, and made a shift to get staggering over.

Yet CHRISTIANA had like to have been in, and that not once or twice. Now they had no sooner got over, but they thought they heard words that said unto them, "Blessed is she that believeth, for "there shall be a performance of what has been told "her from the Lord'."

Then they went on again; and said MERCY to CHRISTIANA, Had I as good ground to hope for a loving reception at the WICKET-GATE, as you, I think no slough of DESPOND could discourage me.

Well, said the other, you know your sore, and I know mine; and, good friend, we shall all have enough evil before we come to our journey's end. For it cannot be imagined, that the people that design to attain such excellent glories as we do, and that are so envied that happiness as we are; but that we shall meet with what fears and snares, with what troubles and afflictions, they can possibly assault us with that hate us.

And now Mr. SAGACITY left me to dream out my dream by myself. Wherefore, methought I saw CHRISTIANA, and MERCY, and the boys, go all of them up to the gate: to which when they came, they betook themselves to a short debate, about how they must manage their calling at the gate: and what should be said unto him that did open unto them, so it was concluded, since CHRISTIANA was the eldest, that she should knock for entrance, and that she should

1 Luke i. 45.

20 ALARMED BY A DOG YET KNOCK TILL ONE OPENS.

speak to him that did open, for the rest. SO CHRISTIANA began to knock, and, as her poor husband did, she knocked and knocked again'. But instead of any that answered, they all thought that they heard as if a dog came barking upon them; a dog, and a great one too; and this made the women and children afraid. Nor durst they for a while to knock any more, for fear the mastiff should fly upon them. Now therefore they were greatly tumbled up and down in their minds, and knew not what to do: knock they durst not for fear of the dog; go back they durst not, for fear the keeper of that gate should spy them as they so went, and be offended with them: at last they thought of knocking again, and knocking more vehemently than they did at first. Then said the keeper of the gate, Who is there?' So the dog left off to bark, and he opened upon them.

Then CHRISTIANA made low obeisance, and said, Let not our Lord be offended with his handmaidens, for that we have knocked at his princely gate.' Then said the keeper, Whence come ye? And what is it that you would have?'

CHRISTIANA answered, We are come from whence CHRISTIAN did come, and upon the same errand as he; to wit, to be, if it shall please you, graciously admitted, by this gate, into the way that leads unto the celestial city. And I answer, my Lord, in the next place, that I am CHRISTIANA, once the wife of CHRISTIAN, that now is gotten above.

With that the keeper of the gate did marvel, saying,

P. i. p. 21, 2 &

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What is she now become a pilgrim, that but a 'while ago abhorred that life?' Then she bowed her head, and said, Yea; and so are these my sweet

'babes also.'

Then he took her by the hand, and let her in, and said also," Suffer the little children to come unto "me;" and with that he shut up the gate. This done, he called to a trumpeter that was above, over the gate, to entertain CHRISTIANA with shouting, and sound of trumpet, for joy. So he obeyed, and sounded, and filled the air with his melodious notes.

Now all this while poor MERCY did stand without, trembling and crying for fear that she was rejected. But when CHRISTIANA had gotten admittance for herself and her boys, then she began to make intercession for MERCY.

And she said My Lord, I have a companion of mine that stands yet without, that is come hither upon the same account as myself: one that is much dejected in her mind, for that she comes, as she thinks, without sending for: whereas I was sent to by my husband's King to come.

Now MERCY began to be very impatient, and each minute was as long to her as an hour; wherefore she prevented CHRISTIANA from a fuller interceding for her, by knocking at the gate herself. And she knocked then so loud, that she made CHRISTIANA to start. Then said the keeper of the gate, Who is 'there?' And CHRISTIANA said, • It is my friend.' So he opened the gate and looked out, but MERCY was fallen down without in a swoon, for she fainted,