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doing good, to the best advantage. Whatever pertained to the extension of the gospel enlisted her sympathies, and called forth her energies. You felt, while conversing with her, on this and kindred subjects, that you were communing with a spirit, that had a high relish for communion with God, and whose daily prayer was for the advancement of his glory, and the salvation of souls. Piety with her was a deep-seated principle. Its influence was seen in all the employments and vicissitudes of life.

Distinguished as she was by errands of mercy, for the comfort and relief of the distressed; her christian graces shone with equal lustre, when the hand of affliction pressed heavily upon her, and offices of kindness were rendered by others. A great portion of the remainder of her life was spent in suffering; yet a repining word was never known to escape from her lips. Her eye was fixed on her eternal home, and though for a little while its vision might be obscured for the trial of her faith, she evinced, under all circumstances, an humble acquiescence in the will of God, and a cheerful reliance on the merits of the Saviour.

CHAPTER XI.

Severe illness-Consolations of the gospel-Importance of ma ternal duties-Care of a family relinquished-Temporary separation from her children-Journey to Philadelphia-Summer residence in New-Jersey-Correspondence-Advice to a candidate for the ministry--Continued indisposition-Trust in God.

THE incidents of 1834, in the life of Mrs. T., were comparatively few. She presented an interesting example of patient endurance, in the midst of much affliction. But her personal sufferings did not divert her mind from the interests of the church of God. She rejoiced in every instance of the display of divine grace, whether in our own land, or among distant nations. Rarely, would she speak of herself except to a few of her most intimate friends. Her prevailing desire, apparent at all times, was to do the work appointed for her, by her Heavenly Father.

In the performance of her daily duties, she almost forgot that exhausted nature needed repose. She thought not of favoring herself, nor of the limits to human exertion, but considering every moment precious, passed from one sphere of action to another, determined to spare no efforts for promoting the

comfort of her family, or for guiding the minds of her children in God's holy ways. With a constitution enfeebled, a relief from care was indispensable. She yielded to the entreaty of others, and made trial of a change of air. The effect was salutary; and induced her to cherish the hope, that all unfavorable symptoms were removed. Much as her friends de sired to arrive at the same conclusion, they were constrained to take a less favorable view of the state of her health. The subsequent winter showed, that their fears were well founded. Disease, in its insidious forms, had too firmly lodged itself in her system, to yield to the ordinary remedies. The patient sufferer became sensible of the fact, and felt that she might soon be summoned to leave her frail tenement. Her mind was raised above the joys and employments of earth,-her faith in the promises gathered fresh strength,--her conversation was spiritual and edifying.

It was the privilege of the writer, to visit her repeatedly at this period. She seemed to him, like one whom the Lord had carried through deep waters, yet they had not overflowed her. Her room was cheered by a holy radiance. The transient observer could not but remark, that she was prepared or any vicissitude. Life and its enjoyments presented few attractions. The light of another world had shone into her apartment, and communicated its

cheering influences to her soul. Knowing that her home was beyond the bounds of earth, she could not cherish a strong desire to continue here. She sought continually to be prepared to enter that city which hath foundations, whose builder is the Lord our God; and spoke in the most humble and affecting manner of the sustaining influence of divine grace. "The Lord," she "has been with me, and sustained my soul through the whole of my sickness. Why should I desire to live, if he should think proper to remove me hence? My heart has often wandered from him; and I see within me great need of contrition of soul, and an humble trust in the allsufficiency of the Saviour."

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Being asked if she had enjoyed communion with God, she said, "I have had many precious seasons; and felt willing to leave my dearest interests in the Lord's hand, rejoicing that they are at his disposal How could I be otherwise than resigned and happy, when I thought of what Jesus had endured for me?" It being suggested, that his sympathy in our conflicts and sufferings, was a rich source of comfort, she broke forth with peculiar animation, "Oh, yes! the thought, that he, who was equal with the Father, and possessed of every perfection, should humble himself to assume our nature, and be moved with a sense of our infirmities, is almost too much for human conception. It gives us such elevated views

of the surpassing riches of divine grace, that we are lost in the contemplation. Could we suitably realize all that has been done to procure our salvation, every day would be spent to the glory of God.

"The world appears very different when eternity is bursting upon our view, from what it does, when we are engaged in the usual pursuits of life. It is in hours like these, we perceive the inestimable value of the gospel. What cheering hope! what ardent love! what holy confidence! it inspires. Can any thing be more refreshing, than to feel in the time of our greatest sufferings, that the Lord is by our side, that he will never forsake us ?"

On another occasion, when she had acquired sufficient strength to walk about the room, her attention being arrested by the beauties of the firmament, she remarked, "If the sun in this lower world, shines forth so gloriously, how exalted must be the privi lege to behold the ineffable glories of the sun of righteousness. May we not look forward with joy, to the time, when this mortal shall put on immortality, and death be swallowed up in life. What a life, that must be, in which the Saviour is eternally present; when all sorrow shall be removed, and tears be wiped from every eye! Who would not rejoice in these afflictions, which aid in preparing for so bliss. ful a state ?"

By the advice of her physician, on the first of May,

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