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the society of the young officer, whose sprightly manners, and communicative disposition, gave the promise of an everpleasing companion. But, alas! I soon discovered that sprightliness and loquacity are by no means united with urbanity and cheerfulness.—The small stock of personal anecdote, with which the incidents of his life had furnished him, was no sooner exhausted, than he became dull, insipid, and morose. Nor was the change which seemed wrought on his temper, less extraordinary, than that which took place in his manners. This youth, seemingly so gentle; who took such pleasure in obliging; who lived but to promote the happiness of others, gives every day such convincing prooss of the malignity of his disposition, in the cruel treatment he bestows upon his younger brother, that it is impossible to behold it without feelings of horror, and indignation.
How different from this, is the change that has taken place in my opinion, concerning the character of the Dewan. Alas! I fear, that in more instances than these, my first opinion has been like an unjust judge, who suffers his decisions to be influenced by the eloquence of flattery. Self-love, whispers that those who are pleased with us, are pleasing; and it is not till experience has convinced us of our error, that we are willing to listen to the voice of truth. The reserve, and iilence which at first seemed to give to the character of the Dewan an appearance of sullenness and stupidity, gradually -cleared away, by time and encreasing intimacy, and discovered to us incontestable proofs of a mild and placid temper, a deeply-thinking, well-informed mind, and a humane and benevolent heart.
The conduct of his Lady, has not, I ,confess, undergone much change; but my opinion of it has been somewhat altered, by an insight into its motives.
That haughty, and arrogant demeanour, which I'had conceived to flow from the conscious superiority of birth and merit, was, it seems, assumed by folly, to conceal the real meanness of both- Her history appeared to me so very extraordinary, that had I not had the most convincing prooss of the veracity of my informer, I consess, I should have been led to doubt its truth.
This disdainful Lady, whom I had considered as some highly exalted personage, was the daughter of a tradesman, "' whose foolish fondness, said the Surgeon," (for I give you his very words) "bestowed upon her such aneducation, as, without instructing her in the qualities that are alone suited to adorn an exalted rank, rendered her .unfit for becoming wise to a man in her own. At the death of this parent, she laid out the small fortune he bequeathed her, in fine cloaths, and took her passage to Bengal, where she did not doubt that her beauty would procure her an advantageous marriage. The event proved equal to her expectations. On her arrival, she was seen by the Dewan, who admired, courted, and married her !"r>trj Ibought" said I, interrupting my informer, "that Europeans had made companions of. their wives. Surely, this' woman was not qualified for being the companion of such a man as the Dewan. It is not possible to imagine, that her intellectual deficiencies, would be unobserved by a man of his sense and penetration." "The Dewan was too much charmed with her beauty, to observe- any deficiency in her merit,1' replied the Surgeon; "or, if he did, she was so young, that he promised himself so much pleasure in filling the office of Pieceptor." Alas! he considered not that pri^e is the usual concomitant of ignorance; that it is not the understanding which^s been perverted by vanity, prejudice, and folly, that will listen to the instructions of a husband.
tion at one of those wise, learned, and pious seminaries, called boarding-schools, her mind would no doubt have been vigilantly defended from the noxious breath of vanity and conceit. She would there have learned according to the precepts of her Shaster, to have adorned herself with "fhamefacedness and sobriety.*' ** Not with bioidered hair, or gold, or ** pearls, or costly array, but (which be"cometh women possessing godliness) ." with good works." Such, no doubt, is the education of Chrrjlian women, at .Christian schools! How does it exalt my opinion of the native genius of the young widow; when I contemplate the extent -of her acquired knowledge, her unaffected humility, her undeviating discretion; and at the same time, consider, that by her own account, she never enjoyed the advantages of instruction at one of these enlightened seminaries, but was confined during the early part of her life, to the roof of her parents! Is it not surprising^ that, notwithstanding this advantage, she should have made such proficiency in every accomplishment? My first sentiments concerning her remain unalteredHer exalted sentiments continue to excite my admiration, while her sweet temper, and ever obliging disposition, make daily progress in my esteem*