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the society of the young officer, whose fprightly manners, and communicative disposition, gave the promise of an everpleasing companion. But, alas! I foon discovered that sprightliness and loquacity are by no means united with urbanity and cheerfulness. The small stock of personal anecdote, with which the incidents of his life had furnished him, was no fooner exhausted, than he became dull, infipid, and morose. Nor was the change which seemed wrought on his temper, less extraordinary, than that which took place in his manners. This youth, seemingly so gentle; who took such pleasure in obliging; who lived but to promote the happiness of others, gives every day such convincing proofs of the malignity of his difpofition, in the cruel treatment he bestows upon his younger brother, that it is impoflible to behold it without feelings of horror, and indignation.

How different from this, is the change that has taken place in my opinion, concerning the character of the Dewan. Alas! I fear, that in more instances than thefe, my first opinion has been like an unjust judge, who suffers his decisions to be influenced by the eloquence of fiattery. Self-love, whispers that those who are pleased with us, are pleasing; and it

is not till experience has convinced us of our error, that we are willing to listen to the voice of truth. The reserve, and filence which at first seemed to give to the character of the Dewan an appearance of fullenness and stupidity, gradually cleared away, by time and encreasing intimacy, and discovered to us incontest. able proofs of a mild and placid temper, a deeply-thinking, well-informed mind, and a humane and benevolent heart. ' The conduct of his Lady, has not, I confefs, undergone much change; but my opinion of it has been somewhat. altered, by an insight into its motives.

That haughty, and arrogant demeapour, which I had conceived to flow from the conscious fuperiority of birth. and merit, was, it seems, assumed by folly, to conceal the real meapness of both. Her history appeared to me so very extraordinary, that bad I not had the most convincing proofs of the veracity of my informer, I confess, I should have been led to doubt its truth.

This disdainful Lady, whom I had considered as some highly exalted personage, was the daughter of a tradesman, « whose foolish fondness, said the Surgeon,” (for I give you his very words) “ bestowed upon her such an education, as, without instructing her in the qualities

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that are alone fuited to adorn an exalted rank, rendered her unfit for becoming wife to a man in her own. At the death of this parent, she laid out the finall fortune he bequeathed her, in fine cloaths, and took her passage to Bengal, where she did not doubt that her beauty would procure her an advantageous marriage. The event proved equal to her expectations. On her arrival, she was seen by the Dewan, who admired, courted, and married her!”.ims thought” faid I, interrupting my informer, is that Europeans had made companions of their wives.

this woman was not qualified for being the companion of such a man as the Dewan. It is not possible to imagine, that her intellectual deficiencies, would be unobserved by a man of his sense and penetration.' Dewan was too much charmed with her beauty, to observe, any deficiency in her merit," replied the Surgeon;

or, if he did, she was so young, that he promised himself so much pleasure in filling the office of Preceptor.” Alas! he considered not that pride is the usual concomitant of ignorance; that it is not the understanding which has been perverted by vanity, prejudice, and folly, that will listen to the instructions of a husband.

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Her hopes of happinefs were from the enjoyment of his fortune. ..“ Elated by her exaltation to affluence, She thought that to realize the dreams of bliss, formed by her fond fancy, she had only to indulge in every capricious whim of vanity. Her extravagance was unbounded. But foon dhe found that it was not in the power of fplendid equipage, or fantastic finery, to fill the chalm of an empty mind. Sie

." The delight of unrivalled pre-eminence in every article ot expensive ornament, foon gave place to sullen apathy, and fretful discontent. New follies were invented, and pursued with no better success, and it will perhaps, astonish you, to learn, that her mighty fondness for the brute creation, instead of proceeding from the pure source of true benevolence, was in reality, no other than an effort of the animal spirits, to procure an object of employment to her ever restless miod.”..

Here ceased my kind informer; who left me very much astonished, at the picture he had drawn of an English woman, and a Christian.

After much reflection, I think I cap trace the uoenlightened state of this wo. man's understanding, to her want of in. Itruction. Had the received her educa

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tion at one of those wise, learned, and pious seminaries, called boarding-schools, her miod would no doubt have been vigilantly defended from the noxious breath of vanity and conceit. She would there have learned according to the precepts of her Shafter, to have adorned her. self with “ fnamefacedness and fobriety." “ Not with broidered hair, or gold, or iss pearls, of coftly array, but (which be“cometh women pofsefling godliness)

with good works.” Sach, no doubt, is the education of Chriftian women, at Christian schools ! How does it exalt my opinion of the native genius of the young widow; when I contemplate the extent of her acquired knowledge, her unaffected humility, her undeviating difcretion; and at the same time, consider, that by her own account, she never enjoyed the advantages of instruction at one of thefe enlightened seminaries, but was confined during the early part of her life, to the roof of her parents! Is it not surprising, that, notwithstanding this advantage, The should have made fuch proficiency in every accomplishment? My first fen. timents concerning her remain unaltered. Her exalted sentiments continue 10 excite my admiration, while her sweet temper, and ever obliging difpofition, make daily progress in my esteem.

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