been my frequent companions; and how can any long respite be expected from them at so advanced a period of life. Lord, make me peaceable and patient when in pain, and thou shalt have the praise.

17. In the morning watch, upon my bed, these words were impressed with power; To them "who believe, he is precious;" and were divers times renewed in the course of the day. O! may I, amidst declining years and increasing infirmities, experience the preciousness. of Christ;. to whom coming, as to a living stone, disallowed of men; but who is the High Priest, and Teacher of saints; their light and their atonement.

20. In a meeting at Hartford, some matter was freshly imparted with a pointing for the ministry, but was fearful of interrupting the solemnity in silence. In the evening, I read in the family a memorial, in manuscript, which I received from Isaac Gray, concerning Dorothy Barham, of Bedford; who was a member of the Moravian congregation there, and appears to have been a humble, pious, and devoted servant of Christ Jesus. There is an uttering of words without knowledge to the darkening of council; there is a scattering and yet encreasing, and there is a withholding more than is meet, which tendeth to poverty. But who is sufficient for these things?

26. For some time past have I earnestly sought to serve the law of God; the spirit hath been willing to serve the law of God: the spirit

hath been willing, but the flesh weak. "O Lord! I am oppressed, undertake for me:" thou tookest upon thee "our infirmities, and bare our sickness," and art" able to save to the uttermost."

ELEVENTH MONTH, 1782.

2. "What shall I render to the Lord for all his benefits?" In the 64th year of my age, and amidst great desolations, both of flesh and spirit, I humbly hope the gentle attractions of heavenly love are measurably drawing me to the Lord Jesus Christ; the great Prophet and High Priest of his people; who declared in the days of his flesh, "No man can come to me, except the Father, which hath sent me, draw him." "And he that cometh unto me, I will in no wise cast out." How ignorant are mankind of the great "mystery which hath been hid from ages and generations." Many are indeed professing faith in the coming of Christ, and his death, and sufferings; and some, likewise, of his being an inward teacher, and true light which lightens every man, who have no more experimental knowledge of these important truths, than either Jews or Heathens. They may have, indeed, at times, experienced the convictions of the spirit of truth for sin, and heard his voice, 'Behold, I stand at the door and knock;" but they have not desired the knowledge of his ways; and therefore having eyes, they see not; having

ears, they hear not; neither do understand the things which belong to their peace. O! that I had the tongue of an angel, and a voice to extend from pole to pole,' to declare "the unsearchable riches of Christ:" but "I am a child, and cannot speak," my "strength is to sit still."

11. On reading William Dewsbury and A. Boehm on regeneration, I appeared far short of having attained that love and perfection which is in Christ Jesus. I have long professed, pressed after, and even at times preached, the new-birth; but being myself weighed in the balance, I am found wanting. A divine call hath often gone forth, Go into my vineyard and work. Nevertheless, dissipation hath been too prevalent, and an undue attention to sublunary engagements; although perhaps, for the most part at least, those which are inoffensive in the estimation of men. But, the Lord looketh not as man looketh; "he requireth the whole heart." I have answered not feignedly, but with the whole desire of my heart, "I go."

16. Bodily pain this week hath almost continually attended. I have gone mourning all the day long. When I have looked for light, behold thick darkness, "and on my eye-lids hath been the shadow of death." "But God is light, and in him is no darkness at all." Christ Jesus is "the true light which lightens every man" and in the celestial regions, on the other side Jordan,

there is no night; for the Lord God" and the Lamb is the light thereof."

24. This day, visiting an ancient and longacquainted friend, she expressed convictions for sin, and particularly for having been too much at ease. The friend, likewise, although far advanced in years, signified the being now afraid to die; which I was well pleased to hear, for all have abundant cause to be so, yea, to tremble at the king of terrors; excepting such as are compleat in him who is the head of all "principality and power." O may the fruit of the spirit be more. manifested among us! "By their fruits ye shall know them," said the blessed Jesus; "he that abideth in me, and I in him, bringeth forth much fruit:" the branches whereon no fruit is found,. are therefore in a withering state, and in danger, of being cast forth. Nevertheless, our dependance: ought not to be so much on the fruit, as on him. who is the vine; the root that beareth us: that in. all things we may grow up into him, who is the head, even Christ; our wisdom, righteousness, sanctification and redemption.. Amen..

TWELFTH MONTH, 1782.

8. What is man, that the Lord is mindful of him, or the sons of men, that he visiteth them? They are less than nothing and vanity. Yet many,

thinking themselves to be something, are soaring aloft on account of their moral characters, or a supposed interest in the Redeemer's righteousness. But is not the heart of man "deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked?"

17. In the week-day meeting at Horslydown, I had some glimpses of those consolations which are in Christ; as likewise the blushing and humiliation which belongs to man, when he beholds himself in the true light: as it is written, "I have heard of thee by the hearing of the ear, but now mine eye seeth thee, and I abhor myself, and repent in dust and ashes." O that I may yet obtain more confidence in God, through the Mediator! The glorious doctrine of the mediation of Christ, has this day been much illustrated in the view of my mind, according to that which is written, "there is one God, and one Mediator between God and man, the man Christ Jesus; who gave himself a ransom for all, to be testified of in due time."

30. I read some part of an excellent treatise, entitled the Heavenly University, and written by Francis Row, which I had not seen for some years. I think it well deserves a new edition; not doubting but that it will be well accepted by the spiri tually minded, of various denominations.

FIRST MONTH, 1783.

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