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11. "Teach me Thy way, O Lord," that I neither mistake the right way, nor stumble and fall therein, but steadfastly and constantly "walk in Thy truth:" and this Way and this Truth is my blessed Redeemer, who by His doctrine and example, doings and sufferings, life and death, is the Way that leads to Life Eternal: "O knit my heart unto Thee," by the indissoluble bonds of a true faith, firm hope, fervent charity; "that I may fear Thy Name," so as that I neither dare to sin against Thee, nor too much presume upon Thy mercy.

12. "I will thank Thee, O Lord, my God," as from whom both my whole self, and all the little good that is mine does proceed, "with all my heart," as being hereunto excited by the fear and love of Thy Name; "and I will praise Thy Name for evermore:" and there is very great reason I should

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most hell;" in the broad way that leads thereunto I have a long time walked, and it is of Thy great mercy that I have not long since been hurled headlong to that dismal place of torments and still I have great cause to complain,

14. "O God, the proud are risen against me" proud Lucifer and his infernal fiends, "and the congregations of naughty men have sought after my soul:" the wicked of the world conspire with the devil and his angels, by their sinful suggestions, to subvert the innocence of my soul, to have her portion with them in the nethermost hell.

15. "But Thou, O Lord, art full of compassion," especially to all them who choose rather to suffer, than to do what is offensive to Thy Majesty ; "and mer

cy," in pardoning the offences of the truly penitent; "long-suffering," not willing that any should perish, but that all should come to repentance; "plenteous in goodness," abounding in Thy blessings; "and truth," both in performing Thy promises of mercy to the penitent, and in rendering to every man according to his works.

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16. "O turn Thee then unto me," who by my sins have justly provoked Thee to turn away Thy face from me; "and have mercy upon me, a miserable sinner: and that I may no more offend Thee, "give Thy strength unto Thy servant," even ghostly strength and fortitude, manfully to resist the devil, and all his numerous troops of sensual and worldly lusts; in all whose assaults, vouchsafe to help the son of Thine handmaid," that I may overcome all their temptations unto evil, and carefully keep my vow and promise made when I was first admitted to be a son of Thy handmaid the Church.

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17. "Shew some token upon me for good," let some sign of Thy favour towards

me appear, "that they who hate me," my ghostly enemies, " may see it and be ashamed," when they shall behold all their conspiracies and assaults against my soul defeated by the assistance of Thy divine grace: "because Thou, Lord, hast holpen me and comforted me:" Thy help to overcome, when I am tempted unto sin, is a great comfort to my soul, for I have hereupon a good ground of hope that Thou wilt deliver my soul from the nethermost hell: and that being raised up from the gates of death, I may shew all Thy praises within the ports of the daughter of Sion; saying, Glory be to the Father, &c.

As it was in the beginning, &c.

The LXXXVIIIth Psalm paraphrased. "O LORD God of my salvation," my corporeal and spiritual, temporal and eternal salvation is from Thee, and therefore "I have cried day and night," at all times and seasons, and in all conditions, prosperous and adverse, "before Thee," as unto whom alone the inmost intimate desires of my soul

are naked and open: " O let my prayer enter into Thy presence," be received and accepted by Thee: "incline Thine ear unto my calling," so graciously hear as to grant my humble requests.

2. "My soul is full of trouble," which being the consequent of sin, is the forerunner of death, "and my life

draweth nigh unto hell," which openeth wide her mouth to swallow down such polluted souls.

3. "I am counted as one of them that go down to the pit," looked upon as a dead man and a cast-away: "and I have been even as a man that hath no strength," which is derived from the Lord of life, to escape the snares and terrors of death.

4. "Free among the dead," not likely to be freed from my troubles, but by death, which puts an end to all the miseries of this sinful life: "like unto them that are wounded" by the fiery darts of the devil, “and lie in the grave" of corrupt conversation, which leads to the grave of death, the wages of sin; and whosoever thus lie there, out of remembrance," both forgotten by the righteous, "and also are cut away from Thy hand," repulsed from among those blessed sheep which shall be ranked on Thy right hand in the day of judgment.

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5. "Thou hast laid me in the lowest pit:" I confess I have so far incurred Thy wrathful displeasure, as to be laid in the nethermost hell, which is "a place of darkness," even blackness

of darkness for ever: "and in the deep" abyss of inextricable torments.

6. "Thine indignation lieth hard upon me," whereto I have provoked Thee by manifold offences, "and Thou hast vexed me with all Thy storms;" those tempests of affliction and trouble which disturb my peace are sent from Thee, to scour the rust of corruption off my soul.

7. "Thou hast put away mine acquaintance far from me, and made me to be abhorred of them :" the invisible society of holy Angels, with the prayers and good wishes of holy men, I enjoyed whilst I was innocent and heavenly-minded; but now being polluted, they are estranged from me, and abhor me in my sins.

8. "I am so fast in prison, that I cannot get forth :" I am so enfettered in the bonds and chains of my sins, that without the help of a Divine hand, I cannot be loosed from them.

9." My sight faileth for very trouble," the bright eye of my mind is dimmed and darkened through the pressures of my spirit: and in this sad condition, Lord, I have called upon Thee," as being my only refuge in

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danger, support in trouble, and succour in all distress, "I have stretched forth my hands unto Thee," by my practice according to my prayer.

10. "Dost Thou shew wonders among the dead?" or, shall the dead declare Thy works of wonder? "or shall the dead rise up and praise Thee?" they must have part in the first resurrection (which is from the corruption of sin) who worthily shew forth Thy praise.

11. "Shall Thy lovingkindness be shewed in the grave, or Thy faithfulness in destruction?" both in the state of the first, and of the second death, there is a deep silence of Thy goodness and of Thy truth.

12. "Shall Thy wondrous works be known in the dark, and Thy righteousness in the land where all things are forgotten?" Thy righteous and admired deeds are not once mentioned either in the grave of death, or in the pit of hell in both estates there is an utter forgetfulness of all Thy goodness and truth. But that I may be delivered from such a sad condition,

Thee:" before I be surprised by death, let my prayer for Thy preventing and assisting grace be not rejected. 14. " Lord, why abhorrest Thou my soul?" I am unclean, I confess, and it is but just I should be abhorred and forsaken; but being withal penitent and humbled, "why hidest Thou Thy face from me," as being still displeased with me, and deaf to my petitions?

15. "I am in misery, and like unto him that is at the point to die:" death, as the wages of sin, dogs me at the heels: "even from my youth up, Thy terrors have I suffered with a troubled mind:" the terrors of my conscience for sin, have been alway accompanied with a troubled and contrite spirit, which Thou hast promised not to despise.

16. "Thy wrathful displeasure goeth over me:" the apprehension of Thy wrath and displeasure invades and overflows my soul: "and the fear of Thee hath undone me:" the fear of Thy wrath in the day of judgment, and of the neverdying torments of hell, hath ruined all my worldly con

13. "Unto Thee have Isolations. cried, O Lord; and early shall my prayer come before

17. "They came round about me daily like water,"

overflowing all the powers and passions of my soul, "and compassed me together on every side," leaving no visible means of evasion and peace.

18. "My lovers and my friends," who professed themselves to be such in my worldly prosperity, and amidst my carnal delights, "hast Thou put away from me;" they are alienated and estranged in time of my trouble: "and hid mine acquaintance out of my sight,” they will not now see me

who formerly frequented my company.

19. And therefore being thus desolate, and deeply endangered, "unto Thee,' as my only hope and refuge, "O Lord God of my salvation, I have cried day and night" continually, for deliverance and salvation, that my soul may continually bless Thee, and say,

Glory be to the Father, &c.

As it was in the beginning, &c.

THE FOURTH GENERAL MEDITATION,
OF HEAVEN.

THE land of Canaan was promised to Abraham the father of the faithful, in these words of command; "Lift up now thine eyes, and look from the place where thou art, northward and southward, eastward and westward. . .; for all the land which thou seest, to thee will I give it, and to thy seed for ever"."

The celestial Canaan is herein promised unto thee, if a true son of the faithful Abraham: Lift up thine eyes, O my soul, and contem late the ravishing feli

cities of this land of promise. This is thy native country, where thou wast at first framed by the hands of the Almighty, after His own image: why then dost thou not pant, and breathe, and sigh, and long to be at home? why art thou so well pleased with a strange land, and delightest rather to be a pilgrim in the valley of tears than a free denizen in the land of peace? a foreigner in the city of Babylon, than a citizen in the heavenly Jerusalem? " Away, away from Lebanon," O my

Gen. xiii. 14, 15.

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