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to be entirely converted unto thee, and to depend upon thy providence, fo as to rest contented under all the difpenfations of thy infinite wisdom and goodness. And though thou shouldft fee fit to deprive me of any, or even all the comforts of this life, yet,

O gracious father, leave me not deftitute of those things that accompany falvation, nor deny me thy favour, which is better than life itfelf.. Whatever thou art pleased to deprive me of, yet take not from me, I beseech thee, the comforts of thy holy fpirit; but in all the troubles and disappointments of this world, in all the calamities and trials I fhall meet with here, be thou my only refuge and my fupport, my stay and my trust, my faviour and mighty deliverer.

Stand by me in all trials, fuccour me in every temptation, fupport me in difcouragements, and advise me in all difficult cafes; but especially, O Lord, I most importunately befeech thee, that when the time of my diffolution draws nigh, and things here begin to fail me, thou wouldst then vouchfafe to strengthen and support me, and at last receive me into thy bleffed kingdom. And, till that time draweth nigh,

Let thy great goodnefs, O Lord, continue to me thy favour and protection; let thy watch

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ful providence be my guard and defence. Keep me in thy fear all the day long, and grant that I may take nothing in hand, but what is agreeable to thy bleffed will. Into thy hands I commend my foul and body, and all that are related to me, humbly befeeching thee to keep us from all evil, to lead us into all good, and to carry us fafely through the dangers and temptations of this wicked world, to that place of everlasting rest and peace, which thou haft prepared for thy faithful fervants, through the merits of thy beloved fon, Jesus Christ our Lord; in whofe words, as he himself hath taught us, I call upon thee, faying, Our Father, &c.

The Meditation for Saturday Evening.
On Prefumptuous Thoughts.

I hate vain thoughts, but thy law do I love. Pjalm cxix. 113.

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My foul! how haft thou struck me,

how am I difmayed at thofe checks of thy voice! the enemy had almost filled me with prefumptuous thoughts of my own merits; I was mighty well fatisfied, full of joy and holy confolation, affured of God's favour, the forgiveness of my fins, and everlasting happiness, since my return from the holy fa

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crament, and our continued pious exercise for this week paft: but,

2. Thou art defponding, and filleft my ears with it may be not: one may, fayeft thou, be in God's favour without knowing or believing it; and one may be (in the purpofe of God) everlaftingly happy in the world to come, and yet be miferable and defponding here on earth. So we may be forsaken, and full of presumptuous confolations: and,

3. Now, Iremember, we have already spoken of and agreed in these things before*, and I am fully fatisfied, that if we truly repent us of our fins, they fhall certainly be forgiven; and we shall certainly be happy, but that is in the world tocome; fo that I fhall always think upon that excellent admonition, never to credit any inward comfort and confolation, so much as to fuffer them to puff me up any more that my fins are forgiven, at such a certain time, at, or after, the receiving the facrament; for, that is not quite fo fure. You have made me sensible that no fuch joy or confolation is annexed, by any promife of God, to the worthy reception of the bleffed facrament; I believe that the benefits are fecured by God's promise to the

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* See the first part of the New Week's Preparation.

worthy receiver, from whence that joy may reasonably refult; but the party may, by fome indifpofition of body or mind, not be filled with it. And,

4. Therefore, I will not expect or depend upon any fuch unufual lightsomeness or confolations: but, if they follow, it is well; if not, there is no harm or danger in the want of them. I will prepare myself by true and fincere repentance, and come with faith, and as welldifpofed as I can, and leave the rest to God. Herein I fhall have the fatisfaction of having done my duty in the best manner I could, and with that I must be content; for the rest, I fee, is not in my power.

5. I will not be difconfolate upon this occafion, by being disappointed of such expectations as my own warm imagination only may raise in me without any reafon or promife made on God's part. Though I fhould henceforward come away cold and little affected from the facrament, when I might expect my heart must have been filled with devout transports, I will not be concerned, nor believe I had not prepared myfélf as I ought to have done; when thou, my foul, upon examining my heart, canft not 3

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6. Therefore I will not be difcouraged, if I find not that content and pleasure after our coming from the facrament, which I might hope and wish for before; but I will go on fteadily in the ways of virtue, and do our chriftian duties conftantly; and whether I feel the fenfible warmth, and comforts of religion or no, yet I shall be sure never to want at length the juft rewards of it; for thofe depend upon uncertainties, thefe upon God's goodness, promife, and truth, which cannot fail.

The Hymn, on Saturday Evening.

Upon a Prefumptuous Heart.

IS there prefumption in my heart?
Search glorious God, and fee:

Or do I act a haughty part?
Lord, I appeal to thee.

I charge my thoughts be humble still,
And all my carriage mild,

Content, my father, with thy will,
And quiet as a child.

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And truft a faithful Lord.

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