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persevering, believing prayer, that he would subdue your enemies under

your feet. Fourthly, live habitually in a serious, spiritual, devout frame of heart. The Lord says, • My grace is sufficient for thee.' My heart was much drawn out in prayer for you before I wrote, nor will I fail to remember


in my daily prayer that He would give success to this labour of love. My best wishes attend

you and Mrs.

I am,


* Your servant for Jesu's sake,


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On the last day of this eventful year, my father writes :

“Sun. Dec. 31.-Through infinite mercy I am brought to the conclusion of another year—a year of many and great mercies.

The Lord has been my support and comfort in easons of trouble and adversity. He has blessed me in my own soul, and he has assisted me in my private studies and public ministrations. Nevertheless, on a review of my inward and outward conduct, I see great need of deep humiliation before God. I have made poor returns for all his kindness. Blessed be his name for a Mediator !—for the blood of sprinkling, which speaketh better things than the blood of Abel. O may the residue of my days be wholly employed for my God. May every fragment of precious time be gathered up, that nothing be lost. And if it please thee, may I cease at once to work and live.''

The new year was commenced by a solemn dedication of himself to God, and a renewal of his covenant engagements, of which the following brief memorandum is found.

“ Jan. 1, 1798.–Our Quarterly Meeting at Wakefield. Peaceable and agreeable. In the evening Mr. Lomas preached from Lam. iii. 40. Afterwards we renewed our covenant with God. It was a solemn season. I could say, God is mine, and I am his.

“ Sun. 14.—Preached at Horbury, morning, noon, and night. O that I could do more for God, even my own God.

Mon. 15. Carlton.-Phil. ii. 12. Much assisted: felt the importance of the subject. Tu. 16. Cudworth.—Luke x. 42. A time of refreshing from the presence of the Lord. Wed. 17. Roystone-Mark

He was pre




viii. 36. A dull congregation : faithfully warned them. Thurs. 18. Staincross.—Matt. xviii. 20. sent with us: He is faithful. Frid. 19.—Met the Se lect Band at Wakefield. We had a gracious season; God was with us of a truth.

Sat. 20.—A week of much retirement. Have read with great profit Baxter's Reformed Pastor. O what manner of persons ought ministers to be. How holyhow spiritual—how heavenly in their temper-how diligent in prayer, reading the scriptures, and meditation. How zealous for God. How fervent in spirit, while engaged in public or private ministrations. What examples to the flock in every thing excellent. Lord, thou knowest all things; thou knowest that I wish to be a faithful steward. Lord help me, for Christ's sake. On the 30th of this month he


in letter to his friend Mr. Edmondson :—“My views of A. K. are similar to your own. Charity itself can hardly “hope all things. * Surely his employment cannot promote the cause of Christianity-love to God and man. These I view as the vitals, yea the soul of religion. Forms of worship and church-government, orthodoxy, external conformity to Gospel precepts, unbounded liberality to the poor, and such a zeal for the cause man has espoused, that he can burn for it—what do they all avail, if love be absent ? O that Paul's words were written on all our hearts, “Without love I am nothing.' Now it appears to me, that Mr. K.'s conduct is not calculated to promote love. 1. Wherever disputes about church-government are introduced, the mind is diverted from the vi. gorous pursuit of the power of religion, and unprofitably employed about merely outward things. I am certain, at least, that this is the case with very many.

2. Bad tempers are fomented: the union of Christian friends is dissolved : those who provoked each other before to love and good works, begin to provoke each other to wrath. Suspicion and ungodly jealousy over the preachers possess the mind; and looking at them through the defective medium of prejudice, they are soon fully convinced that preachers are proud, indolent, &c. The best way is, so to live, that all our conduct and tempers may unsay whatever they say against us. If we do this, Jehovah will be the glory in the midst of us, and a wall of fire around us.

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It gives me great pleasure to hear of the exertions of our brethren the Dissenters in various parts of the kingdom. They are laying aside their little party distinctions, and are concentrating their forces against the common enemy. They rush into every opening door, to diffuse the savour of the knowledge of Jesus; and it appears that God does remarkably succeed their labours. It is pleasing to see such a spirit among them. At the same time, it is affecting to see our people in many places, reversing the scene. O Lord, arise, help us, and deliver us.

“ Still, we may hope, all things shall work together for good. After this fermentation, we may settle into a better state. For myself, I can say, the unsettled state of our affairs has had a good effect on my mind. I have seen and felt the necessity of living in the spirit of Christianity. The Lord has favoured me with great enlargement of heart in his service. I have enjoyed comfortable communion with him, and have been blest with increasing light and warmth in my public work, and I trust my labours have not been altogether in vain.”

“ Thurs. Feb. 15, Staincross.-My gracious Lord was pleased this morning to expand my mind in meditation. O how easy to study when he assists.

When I got to this place I was informed that Mr. Kilham had been preaching the day before. It seems he will take about twenty of our members. Were he and his helpers instruments of making the people more holy, I would rejoice and bless God for them. But I fear the divisions they make in societies of Christians have a different tendency. “Mark them who cause divisions. O may I never be a partizan. May I never spend my zeal in support of any thing but religion-faith working by love.

Wed. March 14.–The Lord has been kind and gracious to me this day. My dear wife was safely delivered this morning of a fine boy. For some time she has been in so weak and relaxed a state, that I often feared she would not survive. However a few days ago I found an unshaken confidence that God would be with her. O how well it is to cast our burdens on the Lord. Glory be to God for all his kindness. O may my whole soul be devoted to him alone for ever.

“April 14.—A blessed week. My gracious God has favoured me with much comfortable communion with himself. Glory be to his holy name. This afternoon Mr. Lomas baptized my fourth child. We call him Joseph. O may he be devoted to the service of God from his childhood. Lord, give him saving grace, make him a Christian; and then do what thou pleasest with him.”

On Monday the 23rd of this month, an event occurred which deeply affected Mr. Entwisle's mind,—the death of his father-in-law, Mr. Marmaduke Pawson.* Mr. E. had visited Thorner on the 13th, and preached in the evening. His subject was “Good hope through grace." The Lord was powerfully present. In his discourse, he was led earnestly to press upon the people the necessity of living in the constant exercise of a “good hope through grace, as if they were going to glory, not in ten, twenty, or thirty years, but next week. Little did he think, that at that very moment his dear father-in-law was beginning to feel those shiverings and pains, which were the first indications of a fatal disease which was commissioned to terminate his useful life in ten days. In consequence of a little over-exertion occasioned by a necessary attention to business during the absence of his son, he had taken a severe cold that day : this induced a putrid fever which baffled human skill, and in spite of every means to which his family had recourse, proceeded to a fatal termination. My father and mother had the melancholy satisfaction to be present at the closing scene. The fever being attended with a high degree of delirium, he was not able to converse much during the last few days; but what he did say was highly satisfactory. He died as he had lived, full of faith and divine love, in joyful expectation of reigning in glory with that Jesus, whose name, whose word, whose disciples, and whose work had long been the delight of his soul. For more than thirty years, he had been a highly acceptable and laborious local preacher, and was esteemed and loved wherever he was known. His labours were extended for many miles around his native place. By many who knew them both, his pulpit talents were considered superior to those of his brother, the Rev. John Pawson.

• An account of his conversion, religious experience, and death, may be found in the Arminian Magazine for 1793 and 1798.




Yet so mean was his opinion of himself, that my

father never could, on any of his visits, prevail upon him to preach in his presence, so that he never once had the opportunity of hearing him. Mr. E. remarks on this mournful occasion :

• My dear father Pawson is no more. The world, the church, and a disconsolate family have sustained a heavy loss. It is impossible for me to express the sense which I have of that sore breach which has been made in our family by his death. During the six years I have had the happiness to be a member of his family, he has been to me a bosom friend and an affectionate father. The poet says, 'A world in purchase of a friend is gain.' According to this rule I estimate my loss. The Lord is taking home many of his dear people from the evil to

O God, prepare us who survive for every event of thy providence."

Mr. E. makes the following record of the last Quarterly Meeting he held in the Wakefield Circuit:

Mon. July 2.–Our Quarterly Meeting at Wakefield. All peace and brotherly love. Blessed be God, we have not had one jarring string among us all the two years. At night Brother Lomas preached a most excellent sermon from Isa. lx. 13, ‘I will make the place of my feet glorious ;' and afterwards God was powerfully present in our watch-night. Praise the Lord.

Tues. July 31.—I am now paying my last visit, as I expect, to every place in the circuit. My mind is solemnly affected, and my soul much humbled before God. Oh! how little good has been done these two years. How feeble have been my efforts. How much have I been wanting in zeal and diligence. O my God, wert thou to enter into judgment with me, what would become of me? Glory be to thy name, thou still bearest with me, and notwithstanding my unprofitableness, thou fillest me with comfort.

“ In the evening I preached at Cudworth from 2 Thess. iii. 5. The Lord was pleased to give me to enter deeply into the spirit of the subject. I felt such an union with God as I have seldom experienced. Nor did I ever so well understand St. John's words as now, • God is love, and he that dwelleth in love, dwelleth in

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