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God, and God in him,' After preaching, my whole heart was given to God. Laid me down in great peace.

Wed. Aug. 1.-0 God, thou art my God; early will I seek thee. While asleep, my dreams were spiritual and divine. And when I awoke this morning, all within me cried, Glory be to God. Much exercised today in cultivating that true recollection of spirit which Mr. Fletcher defines . A living within ourselves, a being abstracted from the creature, and turning to God.' This I perceive is necessary for one who would enjoy constant communion with God; and my soul longs for this. Lord, help me!

* Sat. 4.–While our brethren have been employed at the Conference, I have been engaged in my work, and have been favoured with unusual nearness to God. Blessed be his holy name for ever. Have not yet heard where my station is likely to be; nor am I careful as to that matter. I have committed it into the Lord's hands repeatedly, and I trust he will fix me where I may be most holy and most useful. “Never will I remove out of thy hands

my

cause.' “Sun. 5.—In my way to Crigglestone this morning my mind was a little dissipated by thinking on my appointment for the ensuing year, which I hear is York. Unseasonable thoughts, however good at other times, are unprofitable. They oppose that recollection of mind, which

my soul longs for, and which is so necessary to a life of communion with God.

“Mon. 6.—My appointment for York appears to require more wisdom, prudence, zeal, and piety than I at present possess. They are a well-informed people; many of them deeply experienced in the things of God. That I

may

maintain the honour of the ministerial character, and give to every man his portion, it is necessary that I should have a deeper baptism of the Holy Spirit. O Lord, give me power from on high ; and may I give myself continually unto prayer and the ministry of the word. May all my life, like that of the Saviour, be prayer and love."

The preceding quotations shew how humble were the views entertained by my dear father respecting himself. He thought but meanly of his own attainments and qualifications for the ministerial office; and had he been left to

his own choice, he would always have preferred a sphere of usefulness in comparative obscurity to the occupation of conspicuous stations or posts of honour; and when these were assigned to him by Divine Providence, he entered upon

them with much self-diffidence and prayerful dependence upon divine grace.

Though “never unemployed,” but always intent upon his work, and bent upon getting and doing good, he never thought he had done enough; and his private journal, in which he laid his heart open before the Lord, bears evidence to his deep self-abasement under an apprehension of his own unprofitableness.

Dissatisfied as he was with himself in the review of the two years spent in the Wakefield Circuit, he was highly esteemed by those among whom he laboured, as a devoted, exemplary, and faithful servant of the Lord Jesus Christ. The few aged members of society who still survive, never mention the names of Entwisle and Lomas, but with the warmest affection and in terms of the highest respect; though fifty years have elapsed since they quitted this field of labour.

Troublous as were the times,-rife with fierce political agitation, and bitter religious dissension, peace was maintained throughout the circuit, with but two or three exceptions; and though a few scores of members seceded and united themselves with Mr. Kilham's party, chiefly at Barnsley and Staincross, yet at the close of the two years, the vacancies occasioned by their departure were found to be more than filled, and an encouraging increase of number was reported to the Conference.

On Monday, Aug. 13th, Mr. Entwisle preached his farewell sermon at Wakefield from 2 Thess. ii. 16; and after taking leave of his beloved colleague and many affectionate friends, he proceeded to Thorner, on Thursday, the 16th, where he remained until Mr. Blagborne, his predecessor at York, found it convenient to remove.

CHAPTER VIII.

FROM HIS REMOVAL TO YORK, TO THE CONFERENCE OF

1802.

On Monday, Aug. 27th, my father removed with his family to York, where he met with a kind reception. The Rev. Messrs. Robert Roberts and John Stamp were his colleagues. The latter was of the same standing in the Connexion with himself; the former commenced his ministry in 1759, eight years

before

my

father was born. The superintendency of the circuit being committed to him, he entered upon his work with a deep and sometimes almost discouraging sense of his insufficiency. A A rather serious indisposition under which he laboured for the first two or three weeks he spent in the circuit, accompanied with great prostration of strength and depression of the spirits, tended to increase this feeling. He soon, however, recovered; and when he had been a short time in the circuit, finding himself among a lively and affectionate people, he made the following grateful record :

“I had long made it matter of prayer that I might be stationed where I should have the greatest advantages for getting and doing good. The Lord has answered my prayer. My present situation affords me an opportunity of enjoying the company and conversation of some of the excellent of the earth. I have already received much instruction; and seeing the necessity of acquiring a deeper knowledge of God in order to give every man his portion in due season, I have been led to pray and labour for an increase of grace. The Lord has condescended to hear my prayers, and has favoured me with renewed baptisms of the Holy Spirit. Blessed he his holy name. 0

may I obtain mercy of the Lord to be found faithful. Amen."

The York Circuit at that time was of considerable

extent, a large portion of what is now the Tadcaster Circuit, being included within its limits. The preachers frequently had to preach three times on Sunday and every night in the week, besides much travelling.*

My father still continued to keep a pretty copious diary of religious experience and personal history, with frequent notices of public occurrences, especially such as were connected either immediately or remotely with the interests of real religion. A selection from the entries made in his diary with some extracts from his correspondence will enable me still to present him before his numerous friends as his own biographer.

Riccall, Tues. Sept. 25.—This morning I enjoyed nearness to my God. But in the afternoon, and especially for two hours before preaching, I was exceedingly harassed and distressed by temptation to anxiety about temporal things. The occasion of it was the present state of my worldly circumstances. My whole income,

* The appointments for a few weeks may possibly interest those who are acquainted with the present state of Methodism in that neighbourhood.

Sun. Sep. 16, York, mor. & even. Sun. Oct. 7, York, mor. & eve.
Mon.
York

Mon.

Quar. Meet. LoveTues, A comb

feast, & Watch-nt. Wed. Bishopthorpe Tues. Huntington Thurs. Stockton

Wed. Fulford
Frid.
Wheldrake

Thurs. Huby
Sat.
Wistow

Frid, Skipton
Sat.

Alne

Sun. Sep. 23, Wistow, morn.

Cawood, aft. & ev. Mon.

Kelfield
Tues,

Riccal
Wed. Stillingfieet
Thurs. Copmanthorpe
Frid,

Ryther
Sat.

Fenton

Sun. Oct. 14, Alne, morn.

Tollerton, af. &ev.
Mon. Nun-Monkton
Tues. Cockhill
Wed.

Poppleton
Thurs, Marston
Frid. Healough
Sat.

Uskill

Sun. Sep. 30, Fenton, morn. Sun. Oct. 21, Uskill, morn. Tadcaster, af. & ev.

Tadcaster, af.&ev. Mon. Oct. 1, Little Askham Mon.

Rufforth Tues. Holtby

Tues. Haxby
Wed. Dunnington Wed, Strensall
Thurs. York

Thurs. York
Frid.
Select Band

Frid.

Select Band
Sat.
Prayer Meeting Sat.

Prayer Meetiug

at present, appears to be less than will supply my growing family with food and pay the servant's wages ; so that there is nothing for clothing, &c. The cause of this is, 1. The scanty allowance in this circuit. 2. By the death of my father-in-law, we, at present lose certain supplies. I felt for an hour what I never did before, extreme anxiety. I prayed, but could get no relief; and, with this burden on my mind, I preached, which I found very painful. When I lay down, I was enabled to cast all my care upon the Lord.

"Wed. 26.—Enjoyed inexpressible satisfaction in my God. In my way from Riccal to Stillingfleet, was enabled to couverse with him with unusual familiarity. I could converse with him as a man with his friend. Was led to think that the Lord permitted me to be so exercised last night, that I might know how to sympathize with and comfort others in similar temptations. Certainly if I seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, all other things shall be added unto me and mine.

Sat. Oct. 13, Manchester.—Once more I am permitted to visit my friends here. My soul is deeply affected. My poor father and three of my brothers are yet far from God; and my dear mother breaks fast. Yet I hope her soul is in a good state. Most of

my

old religious acquaintance are gone back into the world. O that my head were waters, and mine eyes fountains of tears. Glory be to God, that I am kept in the good way. O Lord, I give my all to thee once again. I am thine. Save me.

“ Biggin, Nov. 5.—A few weeks ago, Mr. R. Spence, of York, expressed a desire that I would meet with him in band. I gladly complied with his request. The first time we met, he gave me a circumstantial account of the manner in which he was brought to experience the full salvation of the Gospel. This he expressed in the following manner :-'I was led to make a surrender of my all to God, and to take him as my all in all. At that time, I began a new way of life, and have been enabled to hold fast my confidence for twelve years.' Divine light broke in upon my mind, and I was led to see the way of faith more perfectly than ever I had done before. I found the power to make a similar surrender, and confidence to make a similar claim. For several days I

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