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creature? Indeed you all were delighted with her. But I take pleasure in recollecting your approbations of one I so dearly love. She is as prudent as Lady L, and now our Nancy is so well recovered, as cheerful as Lady GYou said you would provide a good husband for her: don't forget. The man, whoever he be, cannot be too good for my Lucy. Nancy is such another good girl; but so I told you.

Well, and pray, did you ever meet with so pleasant a man as my uncle Selby? What should we have done, when we talked of your brother, when we talked of our parting, had it not been for him? You looked upon me every now and then, when he returned your smartness upon him, as if you thought I had let him know some of your perversenesses to Lord G And do you think I did not? Indeed I did. Can you imagine that your frank-hearted Harriet, who hides not from her friends her own faults, should conceal yours?-But what a particular character is yours! Everybody blames you, that knows of your over-livelinesses; yet everybody loves you-I think, for your very faults. Had it not been so, do you imagine I could ever have loved you, after you had led Lady Lto join with you, on a certain teazing occasion? -My uncle dotes upon you.

But don't tell Emily that my cousin James Selby is in love with her. That he may not, on the score of the dear girl's fortune, be thought presumptuous, let me tell you, that he is almost of age; and, when he is, comes into possession of an handsome estate. He has many good qualities. I have, in short, a very great value for him; but not enough, though he is my relation, to wish him my still more beloved Emily. Dear creature! methinks I still feel her parting tears on my cheek!

You charge me to be as minute, in the letters I write to you, as I used to be to my friends here; and you promise to be as circumstantial in yours. I will set you the example: do you be sure to follow it.

We baited at Stoney-Stratford. I was afraid how it would be. There were the two bold creatures, Mr Greville and Mr Fenwick, ready to receive us. A handsome collation, as at our setting out, so now, bespoke by them, was set on the table. How they came by their intelligence, nobody knows: we were all concerned to see them. They seemed half mad for joy. My cousin James had alighted to hand us out; but Mr Greville was so earnest to offer his hand, that though my cousin was equally ready, I thought I could not deny to his solicitude for the poor favour, such a mark of civility. Besides, if I had, it would have been distinguishing him for more than a common neighbour, you know. Mr Fenwick took the other hand, when I had stept out of the coach, and then (with so much pride, as made me ashamed of myself) they hurried

me between them, through the inn yard, and into the room, they had engaged for us; blessing themselves, all the way, for my coming down Harriet Byron.

I looked about, as if for the dear friends I had parted with at Dunstable. This is not, thought I, so delightful an inn as they made that-Now they, thought I, are pursuing their road to London, as we are ours to Northampton. But, ah! where, where is Sir Charles Grandison at this time? And I sighed! But don't read this, and such strokes as this, to anybody but Lord and Lady L. You won't, you say-Thank you, Charlotte. I will call you Charlotte, when I think of it, as you commanded me.

The joy we had at Dunstable, was easy, serene, deep, full, as I may say; it was the joy of sensible people; but the joy here was made, by the two gentlemen, mad, loud, and even noisy. They hardly were able to contain themselves; and my uncle, and cousin James, were forced to be loud, to be heard.

Mr Orme, good Mr Orme, when we came near his park, was on the highway side, perhaps near the very spot where he stood to see me pass to London so many weeks ago.-Poor man!-When I first saw him, (which was before the coach came near, for I looked out only, as thinking I would mark the place where I last beheld him,) he looked with so disconsolate an air, and so fixed, that I compassionately said to myself, Surely the worthy man has not been there ever since!

I twitched the string just in time: the coach stopt. Mr Orme, said I, how do you? Well, I hope?-How does Miss Orme?

I had my hand on the coach door. He snatched it. It was not an unwilling hand. He pressed it with his lips. God be praised, said he, (with a countenance, O how altered for the better!) for permitting me once more to behold that face -that angelic face, he said.

God bless you, Mr Orme! said I: I am glad to see you. Adieu.

The coach drove on.

my aunt.

Poor Mr Orme! said

Mr Orme, Lucy, said I, don't look so ill as you wrote he was.

His joy to see you, returned she-But Mr Orme is in a declining way.

Mr Greville, on the coach stopping, rode back just as it was going on again-And with a loud laugh-How the d-1 came Orme to know of your coming, madam?-Poor fellow! It was very kind of you to stop your coach to speak to the statue. And he laughed again.-Nonsensical! At what?

My grandmamma Shirley, dearest of parents! her youth, as she was pleased to say, renewed by the expectation of so soon seeing her darling child, came (as my aunt told us, you know) on Thursday night to Selby-House, to charge her

and Lucy with her blessing to me; and resolving to stay there to receive me. Our beloved Nancy was also to be there; so were two other cousins, Kitty and Patty Holles, good young creatures; who, in my absence, had attended my grandmamma at every convenient opportunity, and whom I also found here.

When we came within sight of this house, Now, Harriet, said Lucy, I see the same kind of emotions beginning to arise in your face and bosom, as Lady G told us you shewed when you first saw your aunt at Dunstable.-My grandmamma! said I, I am in sight of the dear house that holds her: I hope she is here. But I will not surprise her with my joy to see her. Lie still, throbbing, impatient heart.

But when the coach set us down at the inner gate, there, in the outward-hall, sat my blessed grandmamma. The moment I beheld her, my intended caution forsook me: I sprang by my aunt, and before the foot-step could be put down, flew, as it were, out of the coach, and threw myself at her feet, wrapping my arms about her: Bless, bless, said I, your Harriet! I could not at the moment say another word.

Great God! said the pious parent, her hands and eyes lifted up, Great God! I thank thee! Then folding her arms about my neck, she kissed my forehead, my cheek, my lips-God bless my love! Pride of my life! the most precious of a hundred daughters! How does my childmy Harriet-O my love!-After such dangers, such trials, such harassings-Once more, God be praised, that I clasp to my fond heart, my Harriet!

Separate them, separate them, said my facetious uncle, (yet he had tears in his eyes,) before they grow together!-Madam, to my grandmamma, she is our Harriet as well as yours; let us welcome the saucy girl, on her re-entrance into these doors!-Saucy, I suppose, I shall soon find her.

My grandmamma withdrew her fond arms: Take her, take her, said she, each in turn; but I think I never can part with her again.

My uncle saluted me, and bid me very kindly welcome home-So did every one.

How can I return the obligations which the love of all my friends lays upon me? To be good, to be grateful, is not enough; since that one ought to be for one's own sake. Yet how can I be even grateful to them with half a heart? Ah, Lady G, don't you think I look silly to myself? You bid me be free in my confessions. You promise to look my letters over, before you read them to anybody; and to mark passages proper to be kept to yourself-Pray do.

Mr Greville and Mr Fenwick were here separately, an hour ago; I thanked them for their civility on the road, and not ungraciously, as Mr Greville told my uncle, as to him. He was not, he said, without hopes yet; since I knew not how to be ungrateful. Mr Greville builds,

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as he always did, a merit on his civility; and by that means sinks, in the narrower lover, the claim he might otherwise make to the title of the generous neighbour.

MISS ORME has just been here. She could not help throwing in a word for her brother. You will guess, my dear Lady G―, at the subject of our conversations here, and what they will be, morning, noon, and night, for a week to come. My grandmamma is better in health than I have known her for a year or two past. The health of people in years can mend but slowly; and they are slow to acknowledge it in their own favour. My grandmamma, however, allows that she is better within these few days past; but attributes the amendment to her Harriet's return.

How do they all bless, revere, extol, your noble brother!-How do they wish-and how do they regret-you know what-Yet how ready are they to applaud your Harriet, if she can hold her magnanimity, in preferring the happiness of Clementina to her own!-My grandmamma and aunt are of opinion, that I should; and they praise me for the generosity of my effort, whether the superior merits of the man will or will not allow me to succeed in it. But my uncle, my Lucy, and my Nancy, from their unbounded love of me, think a little, and but a little, narrower; and, believing it will go hard with me, say, It is hard. My uncle, in particular, says, The very pretension is flight and nonsense; but, however, if the girl, added he, can parade away her passion for an object so worthy, with all my heart; it will be but just, that the romancing elevations, which so often drive headstrong girls into difficulties, should now and then help a more discreet one out of them.

Adieu, my beloved Lady G! Repeated compliments, love, thanks, to my Lord and Lady L——, to my Emily, to Dr Bartlett, to Mr Beauchamp, and particularly to my Lord GDear, dear Charlotte, be good! Let me beseech you be good! If you are not, you will have every one of my friends against you; for those of them who met you at Dunstable find but one fault in my lord; it is, that he seems too fond of a wife, who by her archness of looks, and half-saucy turns upon him, even before them, evidently shewed-Shall I say what?

But I stand up for you, my dear. Your gratitude, your generosity, your honour, I say, (and why should I not add your duty?) will certainly make you one of the most obliging of wives, to the most affectionate of husbands.

My uncle says, he hopes so; but though he adores you for a friend, and the companion of a lively hour; yet he does not know but his dame Selby is still the woman whom a man should prefer for a wife; and she, said he, is 2 E

creature? Indeed you all were delighted with her. But I take pleasure in recollecting your approbations of one I so dearly love. She is as prudent as Lady L, and now our Nancy is so well recovered, as cheerful as Lady G. You said you would provide a good husband for her: don't forget. The man, whoever he be, cannot be too good for my Lucy. Nancy is such another good girl; but so I told you.

Well, and pray, did you ever meet with so pleasant a man as my uncle Selby? What should we have done, when we talked of your brother, when we talked of our parting, had it not been for him? You looked upon me every now and then, when he returned your smartness upon him, as if you thought I had let him know some of your perversenesses to Lord G. And do you think I did not? Indeed I did. Can you imagine that your frank-hearted Harriet, who hides not from her friends her own faults, should conceal yours?-But what a particular character is yours! Everybody blames you, that knows of your over-livelinesses; yet everybody loves you-I think, for your very faults. Had it not been so, do you imagine I could ever have loved you, after you had led Lady Lto join with you, on a certain teazing occasion? -My uncle dotes upon you.

But don't tell Emily that my cousin James Selby is in love with her. That he may not, on the score of the dear girl's fortune, be thought presumptuous, let me tell you, that he is almost of age; and, when he is, comes into possession of an handsome estate. He has many good qualities. I have, in short, a very great value for him; but not enough, though he is my relation, to wish him my still more beloved Emily. Dear creature! methinks I still feel her parting tears on my cheek!

You charge me to be as minute, in the letters I write to you, as I used to be to my friends here; and you promise to be as circumstantial yours. I will set you the example: do you be sure to follow it.

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We baited at Stoney-Stratford. I was afraid how it would be. There were the two bold creatures, Mr Greville and Mr Fenwick, ready to receive us. A handsome collation, as at our setting out, so now, bespoke by them, was set on the table. How they came by their intelligence, nobody knows: we were all concerned to see them. They seemed half mad for joy. My cousin James had alighted to hand us out; but Mr Greville was so earnest to offer his hand, that though my cousin was equally ready, I thought I could not deny to his solicitude for the poor favour, such a mark of civility. Besides, if I had, it would have been distinguishing him for more than a common neighbour, you know. Mr Fenwick took the other hand, when I had stept out of the coach, and then (with so much pride, as made me ashamed of myself) they hurried

me between them, through the inn yard, and into the room, they had engaged for us; blessing themselves, all the way, for my coming down Harriet Byron.

I looked about, as if for the dear friends I had parted with at Dunstable. This is not, thought I, so delightful an inn as they made that-Now they, thought I, are pursuing their road to London, as we are ours to Northampton. But, ah! where, where is Sir Charles Grandison at this time? And I sighed! But don't read this, and such strokes as this, to anybody but Lord and Lady L. You won't, you say-Thank you, Charlotte. I will call you Charlotte, when I think of it, as you commanded me.

The joy we had at Dunstable, was easy, serene, deep, full, as I may say; it was the joy of sensible people; but the joy here was made, by the two gentlemen, mad, loud, and even noisy. They hardly were able to contain themselves; and my uncle, and cousin James, were forced to be loud, to be heard.

Mr Orme, good Mr Orme, when we came near his park, was on the highway side, perhaps near the very spot where he stood to see me pass to London so many weeks ago. Poor man!-When I first saw him, (which was before the coach came near, for I looked out only, as thinking I would mark the place where I last beheld him,) he looked with so disconsolate an air, and so fixed, that I compassionately said to myself, Surely the worthy man has not been there ever since!

I twitched the string just in time: the coach stopt. Mr Orme, said I, how do you? Well, I hope?-How does Miss Orme?

I had my hand on the coach door. He snatched it. It was not an unwilling hand. He pressed it with his lips. God be praised, said he, (with a countenance, O how altered for the better!) for permitting me once more to behold that face -that angelic face, he said.

God bless you, Mr Orme! said I: I am glad to see you. Adieu.

The coach drove on. Poor Mr Orme! said my aunt.

Mr Orme, Lucy, said I, don't look so ill as you wrote he was.

His joy to see you, returned she-But Mr Orme is in a declining way.

Mr Greville, on the coach stopping, rode back just as it was going on again-And with a loud laugh-How the d-1 came Orme to know of your coming, madam ?-Poor fellow! It was very kind of you to stop your coach to speak to the statue. And he laughed again.-Nonsensical! At what?

My grandmamma Shirley, dearest of parents! her youth, as she was pleased to say, renewed by the expectation of so soon seeing her darling child, came (as my aunt told us, you know) on Thursday night to Selby-House, to charge her

and Lucy with her blessing to me; and resolving to stay there to receive me. Our beloved Nancy was also to be there; so were two other cousins, Kitty and Patty Holles, good young creatures; who, in my absence, had attended my grandmamma at every convenient opportunity, and whom I also found here.

When we came within sight of this house, Now, Harriet, said Lucy, I see the same kind of emotions beginning to arise in your face and bosom, as Lady G- told us you shewed when you first saw your aunt at Dunstable.-My grandmamma! said I, I am in sight of the dear house that holds her: I hope she is here. But I will not surprise her with my joy to see her. Lie still, throbbing, impatient heart.

But when the coach set us down at the inner gate, there, in the outward-hall, sat my blessed grandmamma. The moment I beheld her, my intended caution forsook me: I sprang by my aunt, and before the foot-step could be put down, flew, as it were, out of the coach, and threw myself at her feet, wrapping my arms about her: Bless, bless, said I, your Harriet! I could not at the moment say another word.

Great God! said the pious parent, her hands and eyes lifted up, Great God! I thank thee! Then folding her arms about my neck, she kissed my forehead, my cheek, my lips-God bless my love! Pride of my life! the most precious of a hundred daughters! How does my childmy Harriet-O my love!-After such dangers, such trials, such harassings-Once more, God be praised, that I clasp to my fond heart, my Harriet !

Separate them, separate them, said my facetious uncle, (yet he had tears in his eyes,) before they grow together!-Madam, to my grandmamma, she is our Harriet as well as yours; let us welcome the saucy girl, on her re-entrance into these doors!-Saucy, I suppose, I shall soon find her.

My grandmamma withdrew her fond arms: Take her, take her, said she, each in turn; but I think I never can part with her again.

My uncle saluted me, and bid me very kindly welcome home-So did every one.

How can I return the obligations which the love of all my friends lays upon me? To be good, to be grateful, is not enough; since that one ought to be for one's own sake. Yet how can I be even grateful to them with half a heart? Ah, Lady G, don't you think I look silly to myself? You bid me be free in my confessions. You promise to look my letters over, before you read them to anybody; and to mark passages proper to be kept to yourself-Pray do.

Mr Greville and Mr Fenwick were here separately, an hour ago; I thanked them for their civility on the road, and not ungraciously, as Mr Greville told my uncle, as to him. He was not, he said, without hopes yet; since I knew not how to be ungrateful. Mr Greville builds,

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as he always did, a merit on his civility; and by that means sinks, in the narrower lover, the claim he might otherwise make to the title of the generous neighbour.

MISS ORME has just been here. She could not help throwing in a word for her brother. You will guess, my dear Lady G———, at the subject of our conversations here, and what they will be, morning, noon, and night, for a week to come. My grandmamma is better in health than I have known her for a year or two past. The health of people in years can mend but slowly; and they are slow to acknowledge it in their own favour. My grandmamma, however, allows that she is better within these few days past; but attributes the amendment to her Harriet's return.

How do they all bless, revere, extol, your noble brother !-How do they wish-and how do they regret-you know what-Yet how ready are they to applaud your Harriet, if she can hold her magnanimity, in preferring the happiness of Clementina to her own!—My grandmamma and aunt are of opinion, that I should; and they praise me for the generosity of my effort, whether the superior merits of the man will or will not allow me to succeed in it. But my uncle, my Lucy, and my Nancy, from their unbounded love of me, think a little, and but a little, narrower; and, believing it will go hard with me, say, It is hard. My uncle, in particular, says, The very pretension is flight and nonsense; but, however, if the girl, added he, can parade away her passion for an object so worthy, with all my heart; it will be but just, that the romancing elevations, which so often drive headstrong girls into difficulties, should now and then help a more discreet one out of them.

Adieu, my beloved Lady G! Repeated compliments, love, thanks, to my Lord and Lady L-, to my Emily, to Dr Bartlett, to Mr Beauchamp, and particularly to my Lord GDear, dear Charlotte, be good! Let me beseech you be good! If you are not, you will have every one of my friends against you; for those of them who met you at Dunstable find but one fault in my lord; it is, that he seems too fond of a wife, who by her archness of looks, and half-saucy turns upon him, even before them, evidently shewed-Shall I say what?

But I stand up for you, my dear. Your gratitude, your generosity, your honour, I say, (and why should I not add your duty?) will certainly make you one of the most obliging of wives, to the most affectionate of husbands.

My uncle says, he hopes so; but though he adores you for a friend, and the companion of a lively hour; yet he does not know but his dame Selby is still the woman whom a man should prefer for a wife; and she, said he, is 2 E

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Thursday, April 27. EVERY one of the Dunstable party says, that you are a grateful and good girl. Beauchamp can talk of nobody else of our sex: I believe in my conscience he is in love with you. I think all the unprovided-for young women, wherever you come, must hate you. Were you never by surprise carried into the chamber of a friend labouring with the small-pox, in the infectious stage of it?-O, but I think you once said you had had that distemper. But your mind, Harriet, were your face to be ruined, would make you admirers. The fellows who could think of preferring even such a face to such a heart, may be turned over to the class of insignificants.

Is not your aunt Selby, you ask, an excellent woman?-She is. I admire her. But I am very angry with you for deferring to another time acquainting me with what she said of me. When we are taken with anybody, we love they should be taken with us. Teazing Harriet! You know what an immoderate quantity of curiosity I have. Never serve me so again!

I am in love with your cousin Lucy. Were either Fenwick or Greville good enough-But they are not. I think she shall have Mr Orme. Nancy, you say, is such another good girl. I don't doubt it. Is she not your cousin, and Lucy's sister? But I cannot undertake for every good girl who wants a husband. I wish I had seen Lucy a fortnight ago; then Nancy might have had Mr Orme, and Lucy should have had Lord G- He admires her greatly. And do you think that a man, who at that time professed for me so much love and service, and all that, would have scrupled to oblige me, had I (as I easily should) proved to him, that he would have been a much happier man than he could hope to be with somebody else?

Your uncle is a pleasant man; but tell him I say, that the man would be out of his wits, that did not make the preference he does in favour of his dame Selby, as he calls her. Tell him also, if you please, in return for his plain dealing, that I say, he studies too much for his pleasantries; he is continually hunting for occasions to be smart. I have heard my father say, that this was the fault of some wits of his acquaintance, whom he ranked among the witlings for it. If you think it will mortify him

more, you may tell him, (for I am very revengeful when I think myself affronted,) that were I at liberty, which, God help me! I am not, I would sooner choose for a husband the man I have, (poor soul, as I now and then think him,) than such a teazing creature as himself, were both in my power, and both of an age. And I should have this good reason for my preference; your uncle and I should have been too much alike, and so been jealous of each other's wit; whereas I can make my honest Lord G—— look about him, and admire me strangely, whenever I please.

But I am, it seems, a person of a particular character. Every one, you say, loves me, yet blames me. Odd characters, my dear, are needful to make even characters shine. You good girls would not be valued as you are, if there were not bad ones. Have you not heard it said, that all human excellence is but comparative? Pray allow of the contrast. You, I am sure, ought. You are an ungrateful creature, if, whenever you think of my over-livelinesses, as you call 'em, you don't drop a curtsey, and say, you are obliged to me.

But still the attack made upon you in your dressing-room at Colnebrook, by my sister and me, sticks in your stomach-And why so? We were willing to shew you, that we were not the silly people you must have thought us, had we not been able to distinguish light from darkness. You, who ever were, I believe, one of the frankest-hearted girls in Britain, and admired for the ease and dignity given you by that frankness, were growing awkward, nay dishonest. Your gratitude! your gratitude! was the dust you wanted to throw into our eyes, that we might not see that you were governed by a stronger motive. You called us your friends, your sisters, but treated us not as either; and this man, and that, and t'other, you could refuse; and why? No reason given for it; and we were to be popt off with your gratitude, truly !--We were to believe just what you said, and no more; nay, not so much as you said. But we were not so implicit. Nor would you, in our case, have been so.

But "you, perhaps, would not have violently broken in upon a poor thing, who thought we were blind, because she was not willing we should see."-Maybe not; but then, in that case, we were honester than you would have been; that's all. Here, said I, Lady L—, is this poor girl awkwardly struggling to conceal what everybody sees; and, seeing, applauds her for, the man considered: [Yes, Harriet, the man considered; be pleased to take that in; let us, in pity, relieve her. She is thought to be frank, open-hearted, communicative; nay, she passes herself upon us in those characters; she sees we keep nothing from her. She has been acquainted with your love before wedlock; with my folly, in relation to Anderson; she had

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